Life of an ordinary princess

I pray to Allah for guidance

2011-11-14T15:15:00.001+08:00

So yesterday night, right before I shut my eyes, I whispered to Allah to help me in this daily heartpain of not knowing what I should do. I prayed to Him to show me who is really for me, who is my soulmate. I made a promise to myself that with His help, i will try to love again with the first guy who texted me in the morning. And should there be no messages from anyone that morning, I just have to be patient as He has yet to give me the right prince charming.

But i woke up to a text and i was shocked to see your name appear on my handphone screen. . . .

Dear Allah, is this for real?

2011-11-11T16:26:00.002+08:00

so tell me what happen now? oh well, I'm a much stronger person now even though deep down i still do feel like i need you in my life. But as always, I have faith in Allah. He knows what is best for me. So i'll go with the flow and prays that I have the strength to go on.

PS: I love you. Still do. I won't put hopes anymore.

2011-10-14T21:23:00.002+08:00

Honestly, i look super bacen here. Not sure if it's due to my swollen eyes or the fact that i have yet to bathe. but oh well, who cares. heh.

So i was googling on stuffs i can do to distract myself from reality. haha, and as usual, i came to videos of people dancing. honestly, it's been years since i've performed. and i miss it super much. now that everyone else i busy. I only dance in my mind.

oh well, gotta start googling for dance courses or anything that has gotta to do with dance. I miss it.

PS: I'm glad that somehow Allah made me feel at ease. Thanks Allah :)

2011-10-12T16:23:00.002+08:00

Let's all get over this sadness or misery that I'm feeling. I'm mad at myself too for hoping and holding on. Feels like an idiot too for feeling the way I'm feeling but what else can I do. I guess I give love too much.

Oh well, that aside. I miss my long long hair. I miss how i can whip my hair back and forth. haha. Can't wait for my shoulder length concaved hair to grow even longer for me to go back to basic. Layered hair style. Pretty please let the day comes fast.

Currently at work . and the fact that I am actually blogging while at work means I'm darn bored. What's worse, nawal and marni aren't here. So I feel like a dummy. wahhhh. :(

2011-10-04T16:45:00.002+08:00

remember how we used to eat this ? how we used to see who took the longest piece just by using our mouth? i kind of miss those moments. those happy moments. but oh well, everything's gone now. Slowly but surely, i will accept and let all this memories go. Insyallah.

2011-10-02T14:09:00.003+08:00

“That’s it. That’s how it ends. No looking back, no holding back. No goodbyes. and no smiles. Because, that’s life. You don’t get a chance to ever really tell someone how you feel because you never have the guts until its too late. And you don’t realize just how much you love them until you lose them. Not until that last second do you understand how incomplete you are without them, how incomplete you’re always gonna be. She tried to live, but she never forgot him, always thought about him, partied like crazy, and never fell in love again. He, on the other hand, forgot her, and never called her again. She never found someones hands to fit quite as perfectly as his hand, and no one ever made her smile quite the way he did. No one could fill that hole in her heart, not even she could. And she rarely, if ever, even got a hello from him, so she just gave up, She knew she’d never see him again, and she just closed her eyes and wished him away. She made it like she didn’t even know he existed but he was always in the back of her mind. Always.”

I know i let him go. But believe me that was the toughest decision I've ever made in the whole of my 21 years of life. Even tho it's been a month since we're through, he is still at the back of my mind. The only time when he's not is the moment when I'm asleep. I really need to get over this heart ache. I really need to get back up again. Seeing what i saw in his facebook. Pictures of him with another girl. Seeing the album name and the album description. darn, that's heartbreaking. I've always imagined you and i together forever. Never thought that we will end up this way. but i was never your priority in the first place. and everyone kept telling me it's not worth it to wait on someone who kept pushing me aside for another thing/girl. Even i clearly know that i shouldn't let myself be treated that way, but i guess it's the 6 years of memories when i'm with you that makes it even harder for me to forget you. I know you've been hurting me way too much but God knows how you always make me feel happy when I'm with you. How you always make me feel safe, how you always hug me when i'm sad, how you'd always be there when i need you, how you'd call no matter how busy, how you'd made me special with those simple goodnight and good morning messages. But i guess all that doesn't matter now that you're gone. like it or not, i gotta let you go and believe that some day my prince charming will come and fill this hole in my heart and make me thank you for letting me go.

PS: i still do miss you and i still do wonder if i can ever let you out of my mind and heart. Dear Allah, please take this feeling off me :'(

2011-08-25T11:23:00.004+08:00

*looks up . Note to self. I've been in a really rough week. I'm back to treating all the new people in my life who is trying to mend my heart a really hard time. I shouted, I nagged and I asked them to mind their own business. Personally, I know that whatever i'm doing now is not right and fair to others. But honestly, I am very sick and tired of people's expectations for me. People's expectation for me to care for them more than i care for myself. People's expectaition to just leave and start a new relationship. Oh come on. I'm not a 12 year old girl who falls in love. I'm a god damn 21 years old lady. and when i love, i really love. Especially when it's always been him. For this 6 years, it has always been him. Somehow I hate myself for that. Cos it hurts me in a way or another. It hurts how he is always the first person I will like to complain or brag about each time something really good or bad happens to me. It hurts how he is always in my mind before i close my eyes each night. It hurts knowing that he can never pick me over that stupid lil thing which he wishes to do, even after knowing that I'll leave if he still persists to do it. But yet, here I am waiting for a miracle to happen. I'm such an idiot don't you think so? Each time you texted, my heart can't help but to skip a beat seeing your name appear on my handphone screen. I'll melt for awhile butwhen we touch over those issues, i hate you. I hate you sooooo much. But why can't i just get over you?? WHY? I've been hurt for too many times now. I do admit you made me very happy with all the littlest things you do like the way you care about me, the short text messages, the way you make sure i feel protected and safe with you etc. But somehow, all this change with your decision/confusion of not knowing which is more important, me or that stupid little shit. With that, you left me with an impression that maybe I'm not that important after all. Maybe you don't want to commit after all and that you still want to have fun. Yes, i admit i've changed. But tell me, did i change for the better or for the worse? Whatever i was trying to do for you was for the best. But no, you don't seem to like it. You prefer the old me. The old me who will accept every single changes and still be okay with it no matter how hurtful it is. The old me who is okay with the bf who cancels the gf's plan to help out a girl friend. ( I know this has been long back. But the thought of it still aches. I know i should just let go but i can't. I'm sorry) The old me who is supposed to understand every single passion you have. I don't mind supporting you in whatever passion you have. But just not that stupid shit. I know I've been pestering you to change for the better, but with how you react to it, the vision of you becoming my husband suddenly became very blur. And there's actually other factors that made me leave. I'm sorry for leaving you. I know it hurts. It hurts as much. But i don't feel like waiting anymore. I know you want me to. But for how long can i wait knowing that you're not even trying to? Knowing that you are leaving it to fate to open up your heart and senses. Darling, nothing will work if there's no effort.

On that note, I'm trying to move on actually. And God knows how much it hurts every single night just thinking of how it all ended and how I wish it could have ended differently. But, I trust in Allah. I trust all his decisions or arrangement he has for me kerna Allah lebeh mengetahui segala sesuatu. Dan dalam setiap kehilangan, there will be a better replacement. And kalau betol kita ada jodoh, we will meet again with a new better you and hopefully a new better me. I shall stop putting hopes and have faith in Allah.

2011-08-08T17:31:00.003+08:00

"If he's willing to do anything to make you smile, he's worth keeping"

Not that he doesn't makes me smile. Not that i don't know he loves me super much. Not that i don't know that he'll look out for me even if his heart is beating fast. maybe i'm dumb to let go, but then maybe there are things he did, people won't understand how much it hurts me. no, i didn't leave him for another guy. if he knew me well enough, he should know how big my love is for him. but i guess there's a time where even arguments doesn't solve this shit. cos we both stick to what we think it's right. On the other hand, he feels pressurized with my non-stop lectures of which i thought it was the best for him. We both are at fault i guess. No, i don't blame him entirely for this failure. I'm sorry for all the pressure i've given you. I just hoped you know what's right and what's wrong. and on that note, i won't meddle with whatever you're going to do anymore. Freedom is what you wish for, I'll grant it. Kalau ada jodoh, kite jumpa lagi. I believe in Allah and i hope you do too. Thank you for all that you've done for me. :')

2011-06-28T17:04:00.000+08:00

Sejak pertama kite bertemu, ku rasakan ada sesuatu. Inikah cinta yang ku rasakan, setiap ku memikirkanmu. Apa benar, aku sedang jatuh cinta. Serasa indah rasa indahnya hidup ini. Ku tahu ku sedang jatuh cinta .

Thank you for always trying to contact me from there. You have no idea how much a few seconds of hearing your voice makes me feel a whole lot better. I love you Muhammad Hariz Bin Hussin.

2011-06-27T15:55:00.002+08:00

The further we apart we are, the more i realise i need you here with me. I miss you. come back quick and safely. xoxo.

2011-06-14T14:43:00.002+08:00

I can't even smile with teeth without looking like a weirdo. -.-"

10 more days to without having Muhammad Hariz Bin Hussin by me. :'( and it's not just a matter of 1 2 days. it's 21 days. mind you. I'll be right here, waiting for you. xoxo

I'm not as pretty, sadly

2011-06-09T14:59:00.001+08:00

Honestly, I'm sick of people judging me . I'm sick of people making me feel like a useless friend. I'm sick of all those hurtful words. As much as I'm trying really hard to not take it to heart, i couldn't. Unfortunately for me, it is really bringing me down . I feel ugly. I feel useless . Somehow I could feel hatred around me. I wish I could stop all these feelings and just be confident with myself. I couldn't . I fail.

I really wish all this will stop. Seriously, cos I'm really close to tears. Who cares anyway right? :(

Yes, I'm in love .

2011-06-02T10:11:00.002+08:00

We're trying, but nothing is working.
But still i want you around.
'Cause if I'm lost in the desert
I know somehow you'll find me
And if I drown in the oceans,
You'll be the first to rescue me.

Everybody hurts just a little too much.
Everybody hurts but it's never enough
It's wonderful to fall.
Let's love and risk it all
I'd rather love just a little too much

❤ Muhammad Hariz . No matter how painful in the ass I am, i know you'll stick around. I hope you know I will always be here too regardless the situation. xoxo :)

2011-05-30T15:30:00.002+08:00

I wish I could do this with you some day soon . Just a day by the beach, watching the sunset . i miss having long deep conversation with you . Life of an army boy's gf . :( i miss youuuuuu

2011-05-26T15:43:00.001+08:00

Been there , done there . My heart cringe at the sight of this image, remembering how i was the past few months.

2011-05-25T12:46:00.000+08:00

Just thought you should know .

2011-05-24T13:48:00.003+08:00

So I'm all alone without my 2 best colleagues in the office today. and since now it's my lunch time and i have so much free time, i'll blog. heh !

i decided to munch on Filet-O-Fish today since all the Malay stalls nearby are either renovating or close for good. :( So i went in McDonald to get my Filet O Fish meal and this horrible counter staff guy just have to tegur my lil pimple on my right cheek, see above. I feel like punching his face so hard la kan. How can you feel so comfortable to tegur such sensitive issues like that? I just laugh it off though.

What's worse, the only delicious thing about the meal I bought from him is the drink. -.-" The fries are tasteless. And both the fish and fries are cold. pfft. :(

oh anw, hi ! rindu blogging about things people dont give a f*ck about. hee.

Have a lovely day ahead whoever who bothers to read my not so interesting life. :)

Alive again

2011-05-23T14:59:00.005+08:00

Hi kengkawan, I've decided to blog again.

I read through my past blog posts and felt pity for myself for loving a guy that much and for hurting the guys that tried to mend my heart. Sorry everybody~. but glad that each one of my past people is now having an awesome time with their loved ones. and i don't actually mind if you were to delete me from Facebook. :) we all have to move on some day.

oh oh and last 2 days was my birthday. I had an awesome time with every single loved ones i have. Through the calls, text, fb messages etc. Thank you colleagues for organising a surprise birthday celebration for the May babies.

Thank you every single one of you for making my 21st birthday celebration a blast . :) xoxo

And . . . .

Yes, my single hood has ended. hee. Have a great day people . mwah mwah.

saya okay ~ . thanks for the concern ♥

2010-05-06T16:28:00.002+08:00

i secretly tell Allah that i don't ever want to go through this.
i don't ever want to have to choose. but it happen. tsk
praying everything will be alright with His guidance. Insyallah, Amin !

opinions~

2010-05-05T23:02:00.001+08:00

to rebond or to leave it?

i need a hug ah !

2010-05-04T22:52:00.009+08:00

Why is it that we are more willing to open our heart again for that

one person who hurts us the most rather than for someone new?

-via runawaytrain

i MIGHT switch to tumblr soon~~.

hey soul sister~~

2010-05-04T16:32:00.001+08:00

Today is my dearest darling sister birthday. :DD so here I am will like to give a big shout out to her for being the bestest sister anyone can ever have ! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING ! you’re a year older now. A year wiser. As much as you are irritating at times(most of the time. Haha) but I still love you with every breath I have. I might not show it but you know I do. Always know that you can always turn to me whenever you have any problems or just feel like talking to anyone just about anything. Thanks for being there for me most of the times and thanks for melayankan my merepek-ness. Thanks for still being childish even though you’re a year older now. At least I know I can always do stupid stuffs together with you like talking to a teddy bear. Haha. Thank you for trusting me. Thank you for not telling anyone my secrets. Thank you for being such a sweetheart. Im thankful that I have you in my life. Your birthday celebration with me and sissy unfortunately havta be postponed sebab kite dua tgh pokai. Nevertheless, we will try our very best to make it a memorable belated celebration for you, insyallah :D I love you sister. Kill them bitches, you’re drop dead gorgeous. All the hatreds from them bitches are just a waste of time, so ignore and enjoy today cos it’s your special day :D

oh bulan ~

2010-05-03T20:44:00.002+08:00

the moon reminds me of two special person. :)

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yes. tell me about it. :((

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2010-05-02T16:33:00.002+08:00

as i walk home from wherever i was,
i saw happy people all around.
laughing, smiling, camwhoring etc.
and i wonder if deep down they feel shitty.
just like me.

yes, there is something wrong with me.

2010-05-01T23:37:00.001+08:00

If you’re going to love me, love me deeply.
If you’re going to break my heart, then break it all.
If you’re going to care, care for me completely.
If you decide not to hold me, then just let me fall.
If you’re going to stay, then stay forever and
if you want to leave, then do it today.
If you’re going to change, change for the better.
And if you’re going to talk, please mean what you say.

imma happy goober !

2010-05-01T00:06:00.002+08:00

i had an awesome night tonight :D
yes, the talk crap session is sungguh awesome.
and what makes my night even more is when
i bump into Tasha ! :DDDDD
sesungguhnye i miss her and tak sangka will get to bump into her.
and yes i got hugs~ :D
imma happy kid !

PS: you know you still do.

hi,saya maseh unsure.

2010-04-28T22:00:00.002+08:00

is it me or my cheeks semakin tembam????
-_____________________-"

anyway, i miss alot of people uh !
some who i know i'll probably never get to meet again.
and some who i know i'll meet but entah bile.
macam Dayangku Nurafiqahwinaini ! rindu uh ! :(

jalan kita masih panjang~

2010-04-27T21:18:00.000+08:00

All my 10 months of being single, I realise there’s only 1 guy of

all the failed dates I had did I ever say the three words.
And of all my 10 months being single, I realise people come
and go as they wish. Like it or not, I have to deal with it.
We havta protect our own heart from all the STMFs.
I learn that we must never trust anyone that easily.
I learn that nothing come easy.
I learn that time changes people. Be it good or bad.
Either ways, I havta prepare myself for the worse.
And yes, I was mistreated a lot of times by some crazy dudes out there
but I’m very grateful that I have girlfriends,cousins and sisters who are
always there for me. Through all the hurt I’ve been through these
10 months, I know I didn’t give up but I’m just a lil tired.

I’m glad that I found Nash. I’m glad that he never fails to
scold me whenever he feels that I’m alil over. I’m glad that
he never leaves though now he’s been busy with staffs and gf. :)
tapi sesungguhnye saya, Siti Nazurah knows that you’ll be there
if I ever need you. Chey ~. :) last long with your dwarfy ! haha :D
I also know how much Dayangku Nurafiqahwinaini cares even if
she’s been busy with work. Sesungguhnye thank you for
replying my messages. You know I love you. And I know
I can always rely on Nurul Faziellah too. Tak kire la pagi2 buta
ke ape ke, she’s always there. And yes, I do feel comfortable
confiding in her things like you know what la hunns. Hee.
Tasha has been a good sister too. Thank you :D
Thanks Syairah for being my gossip girlfriend and
always giving your opinions to make me a better person.

and yes, I realise I’ve been comparing my dates with seseorang also.
And I know I probably hurt a few people with whatever I did.
Truly, I’m sorry. :( But just so you know, I never played
around with your feelings. I knew I fell for you. I did give
you and myself a chance. But somehow things between us didn’t work out.
It hurts but it probably happened for the best. If you ask if
I ever regret dating you, no I don’t. Instead, I appreciate the
lessons taught during and after whatever we went through.
Yes, it makes me a stronger girl than how I was. It taught
me to be even more careful in the future and to not repeat
whatever I did insyallah. And I’m glad that no matter what
happen during our dating moments, some of you still care.
Appreciate it lots.

I also learn that some bitch will always try to pull you down.
And that it’s useless fighting with them cos they’ll
never get tired of it. That’s why ignorance is bliss.
They’ll learn to shut up sooner or later.

One problem with me is I find myself running back to seseorang.
No matter how much how hard I try to shake him off,
he is always in here. The problem with him is that he’s being too
nice with me even after all the shits we’ve been through. The
problem with me again is that just by seeing/hearing his name or voice,
I get all excited like I won a million dollars. -.- I swear it’s not fun
to feel this way. It feels like there is no ending to all this but
I really wish I could end it. But then again, taknak. Entahlaaaaaaaaaa.
But I believe someday someone if not him will end all this misery.
I believe Allah is fair. And I believe every thing takes time.
Falling in love takes time. Falling out of love takes longer. Ehk?
Asal boleh aje. Hee.
Probably no one in the whole wide world understands whatever I feel,
so it’s okay. Just bear my crap laa. If not, kindly click on Alt+F4. :)

Muhammad Suhaidi. Been 2 weeks ehk? :)
Thank you for being a friend. Thank you for the laughters all this 2 weeks.
Thank you for being there during the embarrassing moments.
Thank you for everything you’ve done for me. Let time decide our fate.
Chey~. Hahaha :)

PS: yes, nazurah memang sentiasa confuse and blurr. Mak tolong~~~ :(

2010-04-26T21:07:00.000+08:00

I don’t know why. Maybe it’s because you’re mad, maybe it’s because you’re afraid, maybe it’s because you’re also a little confused, maybe it’s because you want to act cool; but whatever the reason, you’re breaking my heart.
-unknown

Love is always a good thing no matter how much it hurts. Even after it’s over, even through the pain, anyone who has ever really loved will tell you that they never regretted a second of it, no matter how much it hurt in the end. And if you tell me differently, I will tell you that you were not truly in love.
-unknown

Do you ever get that feeling where you don’t want to talk to anybody? You don’t want to smile and you don’t want to fake being happy. But at the same time you don’t know exactly what’s wrong either. There isn’t a way to explain it to someone who doesn’t already understand. If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. People have stopped being comforting and being alone never was. At least when you’re alone no one will constantly ask you what is wrong and there isn’t anyone who won’t take ‘I don’t know’ for an answer. You feel the way you do just because. You hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait.
-unknown

Everyone’s wondering where she gets that smile from when every thing in her life is looking so downhill. everyone’s wondering how she can be so happy. when it seems like her world is falling a part. everyone’s wondering how she can keeping on laughing when she’s doing things against her own will. everyone’s wondering how she can light up a room, when he just broke her heart.
-unknown

yesterday was awesome :DD

2010-04-24T20:00:00.002+08:00

i had an awesome time yesterday night even though
there's too many stupid embarrassing stuffs that happen.
hehehee. :D nevertheless, thanks for staying.
thanks cos ure not ashamed of my silly perangai.
thanks for the laughter.
thanks for everything :)

My darling sweetheart is attached !
I'm super happy for you hunneh~.
keep the smile and mentel-ness ehk ! hehehee
i love you much !

DAYANGKU NURAFIQAHWINAINI !
you owe me a date !

PS: i kindda hate it when my guy friends think that
i'm there for them cos i have feelings for them.
and they'll make me feel guilty by sharing all their
sad emotions with me. hmph !

Fight for this love

2010-04-21T21:17:00.003+08:00

It's hard to get over people, i mean really get over them.
You can start to have feelings for other people but it
doesn't mean you are over them, it just means you're moving on.
-unknown

thank you for the treat. :)
it's not awkward to go silence for a while
when im with you. it's been awhile~~
:))

i nak snickers ah !

2010-04-20T23:10:00.004+08:00

ive been feeling alil down lately~.
but im shaking it off. so i'll be okay.
i know i will~ :)
and i want to have a pillow fight ar.
but i just jump on the bed with sissy.
awesome ah ! hehehehehe

PS: i is sorry for making you feel that way. i'll try my very best okay ! :D

me like youuuu~~ :)

2010-04-18T15:47:00.003+08:00

Somewhere there is another girl prettier than you, smarter than you,
taller than you, skinnier than you. Another girl somewhere is more
outgoing, more laid back, more interesting, more athletic. Another
girl somewhere is not you. You may not be perfect, but someone
someday will think you are. He will love you for each and every
imperfection and flaw. He will wait all day just to see you and
stay all night just to hold you. To him, you will be more than
perfect, you’ll be the love of his life.
-kidlovesdoodles

:)) chins up hunneh~.
im sure every girls will come to that point in time
where we'll be the love of a guy's life :)
time heals wound, it also take time for you bebeh
to open up your heart for someone else.
you'll fall, you'll cry, you'll get hurt,
but remember through all the hardship,
Allah wants you to learn something from it.
And you better be stronger than how you are and never
give up. you know i'm always here <3

PS: i miss someone who calls me bella luna ah ! :(

i love my cousins.

2010-04-18T03:55:00.000+08:00

JB WAS AWESOME !
ME LOVE EVERYONE ~~~ ! :DDDDD
be jealous ! ahahahahahaa.

sorry darlings

2010-04-16T15:07:00.002+08:00

i don't want this to be just another honeymoon period can?

PS: mummy, let me out can? please please please :(

hunnehs

2010-04-15T16:22:00.002+08:00

im on MC today and tomorrow.
cos gastric is killing me on my way to work just now.
hmph ! naseb baek ada hamba Allah baek tolong.
thanks. Allah bless you even if you're not in the same religion as me.
but it's okay, hopefully He'll forgive you. heh !

love is not about me.
not about you.
not about them.
but about us.
thats all that matters.

i pon nak piggy back leh?
hehehhehehehehehehe

PS: i miss my dearly beloved dayangku nurafiqahwinaini too !

why the age? :(

2010-04-13T20:28:00.001+08:00

hi. *melts~~~~~~~~~~~~
HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE

Alhamdulilah

2010-04-12T22:56:00.003+08:00

adventure with cousins was as expected awesome much !
it was gerek seeing everybody happy, laughing, smiling.
just warm my heart to see love and not hatred :D <3
saturdayyyyyyyyy~~ . . weeee, cant wait !

work has been okay.
not that stressful yet.
still manageable.
and the fact i have sissy's' in the same work place
is such a bonus for me ! :DD
everyday is never boring except separation with them.

life has been great too.
i just realise i have lots of people who cares sooooo
much for me, Siti Nazurah.
thank you sooooo much ! thank you
for the offline messages.
thank you for the calls and many more.
you guys rock my world ! :DD
mwah mwah mwah !
saya sayangggg korang~

PS: yesterday was HEHEHE.

cikaro,wo ai ni

2010-04-10T16:33:00.003+08:00

Rec 2 was awesome jugak ar.
sounds effect pon menakotkan orang.
dalah takde orang kat sebelah. scareded much.
but nevertheless, it was fun shouting. heh !
met the rest after movies, play games, talk crap and lots more.
i love girls outing. <3

today's plan excite me much ! :DDDD

PS: i don't care anymore. really. do what you want.
because im sick of being the last thing and not the one.
toodles~

tomorrow is FRIDAYYYYYY :D

2010-04-08T23:29:00.002+08:00

daddy send me to work today on his bike.
and the speed just reminds me of seseorang la kannnn.
how he pecut(okay not for him, but for me is like super laju. hmph !)
on the expressway and i was hugging him tight macam
nak patahkan tulang die. and how he laughed at me.
how i feel like my helmet macam nak terlepas.
and yes, i was scared !
nak hug daddy but paiseyyy.
if daddy was you, i will probably hug you or ketok
your helmet. tsk. sesungguhnya nazurah kangen sama kamu :(

anyway, this song has been stuck in my head since
i was stuck in the office.

usik mengusik semakin lama menjadi rindu
aku merindu, asyik merindu
tersentuh rasa, tidak terduga
timbullah sayang
andai tak jumpa menjadi dendam

gurau gurauan masih terasa dalam bayangan
setiap detik ingin bersam
memadu kasih
apakah hati da gile bayang
merindu kasih darimu sayang

andai kata rajuk di hati
jangan sampai merosak cinta
andai payah merawat rindu
hadirlah hadirlah sayang

rindu demdam bisa terubat
andai sudah bertentang mata
pasti kasih berpadu
terlerai rindu di hati

indah di rasa
waktu berkasih
kita saling merayu
merindu di angin lalu

ingin ku sentuh hati mu sayang
dalam rinduku
moga kau tahu hebatnya cinta
di hati ini sekian lama
memendam cinta payah ku rasa menyeksa jiwa

maybe i just miss someone.
like soooooo much that it almost tear me apart.
jahat la awak ni. kenape suke buat gini?
kenape susah nak jual mahal with u ar?
hmph hmph hmph ~ !

cowok cina muslim :))))

2010-04-07T20:23:00.004+08:00

my first day of work was okayyyyyyyyy.
quite boring sebab lom ada real work to do.
and since the start of my journey to harbourfront and back home,
ive been reminiscing alot la kannnn.
macam kangen gitu.
outram park, harbourfront, vivo city, road to henderson wave,
in bus 30 from harbourfront inter,
and finally in bus 14 home.
and my mp3 in shuffle mode pon macam menyindir.
lagu run la, bidadari hatiku la, suara ku berharap la,
halo la, meet me halfway la, down la.
macam macam.
kangen semuanyaaaaaa~ :((
harap kalian semua baek baek sahaja.

I WISH I COULD MAKE MODELLING
OR DANCING AS MY FULL TIME PERMANENT JOB.
:((((( tapi mummy tak kasi :(
nak kahwin ah ! hmph

my life is great.

2010-04-06T15:53:00.003+08:00

holiday's over.
work tomorrow :(
sadded plus nervous much.
but the thought of having lunch with gf and sissy
excite me much~. weeeeeeeeeee~~.

PS: i don't and can't hate you simply cos you
made me happy once before you hurt me. get it?
same goes to the rest who hurt me.
sesungguhnya, saya tak berdendam.
may u lead a happy life~. AMIN! :D

i love Nurul Faziellah :D

2010-04-05T23:52:00.002+08:00

i love her like superrrrrrrrrr much.
thank you for being there for me WITHOUT FAIL hunneh~.
and sesungguhnya, tadi tak puas la kannnnnnnn.
next wed okay okay? weeeeeeee~~
happy happy dan pretty pretty selalu gf. <3

guy A: if you were my gf, i will treasure you.
typical~. capek dehhhhh

guy B: you're so pretty. nak own leh?
-____-" im not a thing la kannnnn.
abe tak pretty taknak ar?
gahhh

you and i

2010-04-04T21:18:00.003+08:00

inilah aku apa adanya.
yang ingin membuatmu bahagia
maafkan bila ku tak sempurna
sesempurna cintaku padamu.

ini cinta ku apa adanya
yang ingin selalu disampingmu
ku tahu semua tak ada yang sempurna
di bawah langit ini

jalan kita masih panjang
ku ingin kau selalu di sini

biar cinta kita tumbuh harum mewangi
dan dunia menjadi saksinya
untuk apa kita membuang buang waktu
dengan kata kata perpisahan

demi cinta kita
aku akan menjaga
cinta kita yang telah kita bina
walau hari terus berganti hari lagi
cinta kita abadi selamanya~

where'd you go

2010-04-04T01:12:00.001+08:00

sadly, time changes people.
people i love.
people who means alot to me.
be it a guy or a girl.
and as much as i dun want them to,
there is nothing i can do about it.
honestly, i miss the lot of you :(

bring me out

2010-04-03T18:08:00.002+08:00

i feel angry.
i feel sad.
i feel happy.
i feel restless.
i feel irritated.
i feel like crying.
:(

don't be jahat with me can?
don't make me one of your victims.
don't make me your options.
sesungguhnye, as much as i don't want you to
but go away please~ :((( go away :'(

love never last.

2010-04-03T17:28:00.001+08:00

i would love to go to the beach.
i wish to shisha.
i wish to watch movies.
i wish to do a hell lotsa stuffs.
but everyone is busy.
sadded :(

fenat la !

2010-04-02T17:24:00.002+08:00

i don't want to be your back up plan anymore.
i don't want to make you my priority anymore.
i don't want to be your spare anymore.
but tell me why the eff am i still here??!!
sesungguhnye, i is tired.
so imma shake it off.
please self, please try your best? :(
i don't want to be like this anymore.
please?

Alhamdulilah

2010-04-01T17:01:00.003+08:00

i was trying to look like the above and tell my mummy
im employed. but get too excited so muka pon tak maintain.
omg everyone im so happy !

anggek

2010-04-01T15:45:00.003+08:00

im guessing everybody knows that im afraid of cats.
so i was outside just now, arranging the stuffs in my bag
on the bench at my void deck. at first i didn't realise there was
a cat sitting there la kan, and when i do, i jerk, looks at it
and "ler" at the cat. I ACTUALLY LER AT THE CAT.
I DIDNT SHOUTED, RUN OR PULL ANYBODY'S SHIRT.
IM PROUD PLEASE !
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAA.
*action face

shake it off

2010-03-31T17:11:00.001+08:00

I’m mad at myself, not you. I’m mad for always being nice,
always apologizing for things I didn’t do, for getting attached,
for making you my life, depending on you,
wasting my time on you, thinking about you, following you,
changing for you, forgiving you, wishing for you, dreaming of you,
and most of all… for not hating you which I know I should… but I can’t.
-Unknown

chins up darling.
you're not the only person who feel this way.
hugs. it will get better in time.
keep trying <3

Nurul Faziellah

2010-03-31T15:59:00.002+08:00

My dearest baby girl.
im hoping everything turns out well for you.
im hoping that it's not very bad.
im hoping that you don't have to fork out a large sum of money.
im hoping you'll get better in time
and last but not least,
im hoping to see you soon.
i love you sister ! <3

PS: i need a job ! grrr~

sesungguhnye nazurah geram

2010-03-30T22:30:00.003+08:00

When I pass your road I can't help rewind
What is wrong with me?
Tell me why I keep tryin'a stay around

just like gravity.

2010-03-30T15:30:00.006+08:00

im sorry if i couldn't recognise my online friends
when you guys see me outside.
and im sorry if you guys felt as though i was looking at you.
but really, im not very observant with my surroundings
when im with a friend. and yes, i smile alot.
sorry if you guys felt as though i was directly looking at you and smiling
cos sesungguhnye nazurah tak perasan langsung im doing that.
but nevertheless, thanks for recognising me.
maybe you guys should try approaching me. heh.
and even though i probably won't recognise you
at least i can probably really see you la kan
instead of me trying to crack my head wondering if i really
look at you eye to eye and smile. heh !
take care semuanya :D

Cause with every sound
You're pullin' me down
Baby,
You got a hold on me
Like gravity

PS: thank you for the calls :) sweet la. touch sungguh.really. :D

everybody be happy please? :)

2010-03-29T20:24:00.002+08:00

hello ladies.
im glad that im not the only one who breaks down
for no reason. heeee.
and thanks to some who called me crazy. grr. heh
but nevertheless, thanks to those for texting and calling
to ask my day, if im okay and what happen.
greatly appreciated.
i guess every girls have their days la ehk?
and i pray each one of those will always have someone
who they can talk to and cry to.
i feel much better now.
thank you darlings <3

Darling, you are the only exception. <3

move~

2010-03-28T23:57:00.003+08:00

chalet at aloha was funnnn.
especially riding a bike at arcade.
sungguh funnnnnnnnnn i tell you.
i guess i now know how it feels like to rempit.
hahaaaaa. awesome laaaa.
i want to take lesen motor laaa.

PS: Kak ifah ~. i want pictures of karaoke ! :DDD

yes you.

2010-03-28T01:31:00.002+08:00

the only one i can talk to.
about almost anything under the sun
without feeling embarrassed or afraid you'll get bored.
then you'll act like you malas want to dengar my stories
but still there at the same time.
thank you :)
you know you love me. ahahaha ! <3
i want to play with your hair again.
but it's probably gone now.
but whatever. ahaaa. soon ehk?

baby if i got you.

2010-03-26T16:40:00.004+08:00

car-are-okay tomorrow !
excited much !!!! :DD

dear eyes,
whats with the tears?

:'(

2010-03-26T16:38:00.001+08:00

HOW CAN FARREL DIEEEEEEEEEEE?????
HMPH HMPH HMPH !

movies

2010-03-25T15:58:00.000+08:00

i soooooo want to watch !!!

Crush

2010-03-25T15:50:00.001+08:00

A guy had a crush on this girl. He follows her wherever she goes. One day the girl noticed and asked the guy

Girl: Why do you keep on following me?

Boy: Because you're so pretty and I think I'm falling in love with you.

Girl: Really? But you haven't met my friend yet. She's prettier than me and she's right behind you.

Boy: (The guy looked behind him but found no one) Are you making fun of me? There's no one behind me.

Girl: No, but if you really love me, you won't look back.

my hatred maken kuat. worried much.

2010-03-25T15:14:00.003+08:00

i hate guys who thinks that all girls need them for some kind
of protection. yes, i agree that guys are much stronger physically
than woman. but nevertheless, jangan pandang rendah can?
if guys can, girls can too. and yes, i might not know how to fight,
but i know how to bite, how to scream and kick at the most sensitive
part of a guy. who says i need a man to be happy? i got gfs for that.
im not saying i dun need a guy ever. i know i will one day fall
for a guy and eventually get married insyallah. but for now,
i don't like guys who brainwash me with this kindda thing ar.
it makes me really angry gitu. like girls are so weak that we need
guys in our life to support us. ehk please ehk.
you guys are in our life just to add on to the happiness we already have.
you guys are not our world. our world doesn't revolve around you.
even if it does, a mistake that every girls should realise.
and and and, you cannot assume that im like the girls who
love to make out. who will love you cos you're effing rich.
or who will love you because you got a bike or a car.
oh em gee. it irritates me alot sumpah !
i dun give a damn about all the harta you have.
if you dun have the heart, you might as well dun talk to me.
and yes, u make me feel like a prostitute for offering the money
and ask me to do shits. i would have slap, punch, kick you for that.
but heck, Allah will definitely punish you for making me feel low.
i hate korang ar. seriously.
hmph hmph hmph.
you guys are so jahat seyyyyyyyy.
but you all are forgiven. thanks to my forgiving nature
no matter how crappy you treat me. hmph !

ex kurma

2010-03-24T13:41:00.000+08:00

thinking doesnt mean loving kan???
maybe just rindu kannn?

you gotta work it out

2010-03-24T13:38:00.002+08:00

nak please? i like got so much things to say.
but dunno where to start.
and no one to spend time with.
everyone is so busy la kannnn.
nevertheless, i never love any of you less.
so do take care whatever you're doing
and jangan lupa insan di sini.
zaaaaaaaaaaappp~. hahaaa :)

kambing

2010-03-24T12:56:00.002+08:00

today my hair looks good and no one ask me out !
hmph hmph hmph ! bile rambot tak senonoh,
ajak keluar. hmph hmph ! HAHAHAHAHAAAA.
laparrrrrrrrrrr laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
anyway, 1 more day.
can somebody tell me why am i still here?
i feel a lil dumb ar.

PS: Allah,you know i need it much! tolong saya okay? :)) lots of love.

love

2010-03-23T14:44:00.001+08:00

I don’t pretend to know what love is for everyone,
but I can tell you what it is for me. Love is knowing all about someone,
and still wanting to be with them more than any other person.
Love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about
yourself, including the things you may be ashamed of.
Love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but
still getting weak knees when they walk in a room and smile at you.
-TheOC

it's not fair how you always make me feel that way.
not fair. :(

i heard my heart crack yest night.

2010-03-23T14:21:00.002+08:00

It’s better to have nobody than somebody who is half yours,
half there or doesn’t want to be there or
is there and then suddenly disappears.

PS: won't tell anybody how your voice is my favourite sound.

i wish i could stop it :(

2010-03-22T15:54:00.002+08:00

cowok: ehk ape ni eyebags?!
cewek: err. tak cukup tido laaa.
cowok: asek menanges je kannnnn???
cewek: diam laaaaaa~.
cowok: taknak lak. when are u gna stop these tears princess?
cewek: it's not like i want it to happen you know. it just happen.

to whoever it may concern.

2010-03-22T15:52:00.000+08:00

I hope that someday you find an amazing girl.
The kind of girl who means everything to you and
makes you want to spend every moment of your time with her.
The kind of girl who keeps you up at night, just thinking about
her beautiful smile, and when you finally fall asleep,
she’s all you dream about. I hope she’s the first thing to
cross your mind when you wake up in the morning.
I hope she changes you in a way you could never understand,
yet you know it’s for the better. I hope she’s the kind of girl
you would die for. The kind of girl who could make you cry,
even though you’d never admit it. The kind of girl who makes
you want to go out and do something special, something that
means everything to the both of you. The kind of girl you can
have silly fights with, then kiss and make up, and hold her in
your arms like you’re falling in love all over again. I hope you
make memories with her you never forget. I hope she’s your
world, and what you have with her is nothing less than perfection.
-livingmadrid

fight for me

2010-03-22T15:48:00.001+08:00

Relationships are worth fighting for but sometimes
you can’t be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for you.
-vforvanity

girlfriend :D

2010-03-22T15:37:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETS :DDDD
thanks for all the times you've been there for me.
providing tissue whenever u saw tears in my eyes.
and a whole lot of other stuffs. :D
i hope you have a great day today.
happy happy and pretty pretty selalu gf ! :D
you're missed ! HUGS~

my hunneh birthday !

2010-03-21T23:20:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLINGGGGG~~~ :D
from the video i watch, u sure do have a lot of fun la kannn.
jealous much i couldn't join in the fun.
nevertheless, it's great to see u have fun.
happy happy selalu bebeh.
i love you much !
thanks for everything and semoga hidup penuh dengan
kebahagiaan la kannn. AMIN ! :D
you're missed like super much !

bring me on a date to here can? hahahaa

2010-03-20T02:34:00.000+08:00

as you can see how tak relax my leg look like.
so ticklish laaaaa~~~. sissy first few minutes also keep on pulling her leg up.
but it was fun laaa kann.
again again ! hehehehehe :DD
and yes, the fishes tak mati ehk.
cos my leg quite clean ar. hehehe. :D

PS: can u not follow us? :(

dear putra.

2010-03-19T15:21:00.003+08:00

you know sometimes i feel like this.
sometimes i wish someone will come and hug me.
just let me cry everything out.
just let me say everything out without them saying anything.

PS: someone mention your name today.
tell me why do i shiver upon hearing it?

reblogged

2010-03-19T15:19:00.002+08:00

No girl should be treated like shit & pushed to the curb without a reason.
No one’s perfect, girls get mad, they get sad, & if they’re jealous,
that just shows you how much she wants you. All the good girls are
the ones that get taken advantage of. When in reality, they should
be treated like a queen, but instead they settle for less, for one simple
guy that hurts her everyday & yet she never loved him less.

nazurah feeling feeling ar. sorry ! ahahaa

2010-03-19T15:14:00.001+08:00

Girl: Babe I dont think I can sleep.
Boy: Why baby?
Girl: I don't know. I need your boring voice to put me to sleep. Wanna tell me a story? Hehehe.
Boy: Hahah, you're lucky that you're cute. How about I read you Dear John.
Girl: Sounds perfect.
- Boy reads Dear John-
- 15 minutes later-
Girl: *snores*
Boy: Babe?
Girl: *snores*
Boy: Hahah, you always knock out within 15 minutes. Your snores are cute. Babe, I really love you. I really do. Sometimes I might show that I dont give a fuck. But I do. I never want to lose you. I know it's cheesy, but this is how I feel. This is REAL. I know I'm not the best thing out there, but I'm trying to be one of your best ever. Thank you babe, thank you for choosing a messed up guy like me to be your boyfriend. Thank you for being mine. I honestly can't see myself with anyone else but you babe. I know I say I love you too many times, but each time I say it, my feeling grows more & more for you. Thanks for listening babe. I'll still be on the phone if you need anything. Goodnight babe & sweet dreams. I won't let the bed bugs bite you.

like awwwwwwwwwwwwwww~~ :))

2010-03-19T15:03:00.001+08:00

Serena: I need to know why you love me.
Dan: Because I do.
Serena: I really want to trust you when you say those words, Dan. So maybe if I knew why, I’d stop being so scared of hearing them and afraid to say them.
Dan: Okay. Wanna talk about why—
Serena: It has to do with my mom and her many marriages.
Dan: There, that’s why. Because I actually like it when you interrupt me, which is often, by the way. I love you because you make no apologies about being exactly who you are. Beautiful, smart, sexy as hell.
Serena: Now you’re embarassing me.
Dan: That’s another reason. You’re completely unaware of your effect on me. You’re also completely unaware that you laugh like a four year old.
[Serena laughs] Just like that. And I love you because you can be with someone like me, and still be best friends with someone like Blair.
Serena: Yeah, well I try to be.
Dan: I know you do, and that’s not easy. But you never give up on her, that is how amazing you are.
Serena: Well you’re amazing too. For being able to say all those things. You just are. [they kiss]And I love you.

-reblogged

anda cute dot com.

2010-03-18T16:46:00.002+08:00

ni super cute please !!!!!! grrr~~~. hahahaa

saturday~~~, off to the beach !
excited much pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~ :DDD

i have no idea what ure thinking of.
i wish i knew though.

i hate horny guys !

2010-03-17T15:05:00.000+08:00

i just want everyone to know that no matter how
someone you love bring you down, you are special.
he or she may be just too blind to not see it.
so chins up aye lovelies :D

can you imagine me being a pre-school teacher???? :DDD
heh ! as much as they're super cuteeeeee !
i cannot imagine changing diapers for all of them. ahaa!

if only i can delete things or people in my life,
i would love to delete my past. delete all the sadness.
but then again, without my past i won't be where i am now.
i won't be strong. i won't appreciate the new ones better.
i won't see who's sincere and who's not.
so thank you past for bringing me to the present.
i'll make do with whatever i have now.
i'm contented. but i will still remove all the jerks,
the arguer, the over protective, the horny guys and many
many more. because who knows i can turn them around ehk?
hahahaha~. i will be happy. i promise.
anw, i miss Nash !

lelaki lelaki

2010-03-17T14:45:00.001+08:00

girl: hey.. can i know whats ur relation with _____?
me: we're just friends. nothing more.
girl: oh. cos im his girlfriend for 5 months now. can u please stop cntcting him?
me: oh i didnt know. and no worries. i never contact him. been a long time. do take care.

satu contoh lelaki yang emang dasar buaya darat.
ada ke patot bilang semua orang die single padahal padahal.
kesian girlfriend die. i hate this kindda guys too.
always tak appreciate whatever yang ada. tsk.
don't worry ladies who don't know me,
i am not a relationship breaker.
so stop judging that i am cos i'll hate you for that. heh !

do take care.

2010-03-17T14:27:00.004+08:00

We had said goodbye so many times before,
but somehow our paths always managed to cross and
we ended up in each other’s arms. But now when we said
this goodbye. I have this feeling that I will never see you again.
And that really hurts because I know that we are meant to
lead our own separate lives. And I honestly don’t wanna cross
your path in the future ‘cause I don’t want all these feelings to
come back and have to try and get over you all over again.

just the right quote.
i don't want all these feelings to come back and have
to try and get over you all over again.

like what my girlfriend say.
we'll shake it off. and it's show time :DDD
saturdayyyy bebeh. iloveyou <3

happiness is in my hands. i'll decide my life.

2010-03-16T22:42:00.002+08:00

hello. aku okay aku okay :DD
ahahahahaaaaaa. never been better
thank you dayang ku. thank you nurul ku.
for being the bestest girlfriend ever ! hugs tight.
i'll try to not shed tears for you anymore.
jangan lima minit naz ! :DD
i have the whole world behind me.
thank you all my loved ones.

i slept with a smile last night.

2010-03-16T15:20:00.001+08:00

last night, i got all excited when i see your name on my cell phone.
even you got a shock hearing my excited voice upon hearing your voice.
heh ! thank you Allah !
thank you you. :)))))))

my name is Nazurah.
and i'm not a terrorist !

abusive

2010-03-15T16:26:00.003+08:00

the two words that starts with the letter 'L'. both contain
4 letters. Love and lust. A lot i knew(mostly guys)
are confused about this two words la kan.
and as far as i know, this two words do not mean the same.
you don't have to do things physically with a person to show
him or her that you love them. and if you were forced to do it
by that person just so he knows you love him, then it's wrong already.
because love is not force. love is not lust.
love lasts but lust dies. you don't have to prove love
by doing it. and if he threaten that he'll leave you just cos u didn't do it,
then let him be. not our loss ladies.
if it's really love, just by showing your care and concern
and all the little stuffs, he or she will see and feel it.
so im very sure whatever you feel towards me
is not love but lusts. and im not that kindda girl.
if you think i can be bought, then you're wrong.
disappointed much with the guys nowadays.
i wish i could shoot them.

and then again, after all the things we've been through.
the above picture says it all.
& no one knows why i'm into you

my eyes are burning from these silly tears

2010-03-15T15:55:00.003+08:00

S: semlm tido kul brape?
me: 4 5 lebeh ar.
S: lambat nahhh
me: abe takleh tido.
S: buat ape terpikir kan orang lame. orang tu sendiri tak pikir kan u.
me: ............. DIAM LAAA~.
hmph hmph hmph hmph !

i know it's probably stupid to blur him out
cos probably everyone will know who he is.
but stillllllll, whatever la kannn. heh.
and the reason why he's up here is cos
i miss him like super duper much ! :'(
and i know i should probably like get over it now.
but cannot tashan laaaa. like seriously.
because of all the guys, he is the best so far.
im not saying all guys are the same mind you.
just that, entah la dari mane ntah lelaki yang tak betol
datang to mess my life up. maneeeeeeeee youuuuuuuuuuuu??
grrrr~. kangen~. i know where u are la.
but stilllllll. i feel like biting you, pinching you, slapping you,
mess your hair up and hugs you tight !
i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you.
come back soooooonnnnnnnn.

Iz: Nazurah takmu put hope laaaaaa ! hmph !
me: well, at least he called? diam la. tkmu cakap pape ehk. HAHA

PS: baby baby baby, noooo~

rude boy.

2010-03-14T21:21:00.002+08:00

i can't wait for karaoke session laaaaa.
i dunno what im feeling already.
all i know is im tired of everything that has been going on.
praying hard things will get better though. Amin !

would you still love me if i look like this?
i know someone who doesn't care even if i look very shag.
i miss youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu~~. :(
i hate everything thats going on laaaaaa.
its not fairrrrrrrrr. tell me how you do it?

sneak out

2010-03-13T16:59:00.001+08:00

if only i can do this everynight !
da gi clubbing agaknye.
ahaaa~.

PS: da lame tak nampak haizad bby. wonder how he is doing.
rinduuuuuu laaaaaa~.

semuanye geli. mane tak geli?

2010-03-13T16:40:00.003+08:00

as every temasek poly-ians know,
yesterday was exam result dayyy.
and i woke up as early as 9 am
(okayla, tak early sangat la but early for me. heh !)
to check. kanchiong abes~. ahaaha.
only to know that the result will be out by 2pm.
kents~. ahaaaa~. nervous nak mamps la kannnnn.
cos i kindda feel like i did badly for MMNS.
BUUUUUUUUTTTTTTTTTTT~~~. macam nak nanges you i tell you.
i pass all. and surprisingly got A for MMNS. hahaaaa.
Alhamdullilah. i've finally graduated from Temasek Poly.
i'll miss it much though. i wish i could hug it !
compress2 pastu hug. best ehk kalau leh uat gitu? hee.

anyway, mummy is kind to top up my ezlink for me
to go out and kindda celebrate? hah !
thank you mummy. iloveyou. :))
thanks uncle for the treats.
greatly appreciated :DDD
Alice in wonderland twice la kann.
johnny depp nye pasal. *meltsssssssssssss~~
i suka laaaaaa~~ :DDD

PS: sissy went to fish spa. awesome ehk???
nak tapi geli ar cane?

NS is a cruel thing~. imy.

2010-03-11T16:01:00.002+08:00

No matter how ugly you think you are,
there’s always someone out there who thinks you’re beautiful.
No matter how shit and worthless you feel,
there’s someone out there who you mean the world to.
No matter how many flaws you have, to one person you are perfect.
No matter how much you think love is bullshit
and there’s no one that loves you, there is.
There’s someone who’s waiting for the perfect chance to tell you.
Someone who’s always there for you.
Someone who loves you even more than you love yourself.
So don’t give up hope. You’ll find them, one day.
-sweetlymistaken

bby, i love you.

2010-03-10T17:31:00.002+08:00

If he really cared about you, he wouldn’t have been flirting with other girls more than you, he doesn’t respect you. He might’ve been sweet, opening doors for you, listening to you, keeping you happy, he could’ve showed you all that. But, he never respected you. If he did respect you, he would still be here. If he cared, he would’ve stayed, or tried to fix things. If he cared, he would’ve at least tried to stay friends with you. If he really cared, he’d be back by now. But where is he? Exactly. He never cared about you. He doesn’t care about you now either. He just used you for his own enlightment. He just needed a toy to play with. Unfortunately, it had to be you. If he ever thinks that, you’ll always be his back up plan for anything that goes wrong. No. That’s not going to be you. If he ever comes back, he can get a nice slap across the face before he gets anywhere near your heart ever again.

PS: sometimes i wonder if guys understand what's i love you.
it's not just words. prove it~

i is sorry.

2010-03-09T15:17:00.003+08:00

Forget him.
Make me :)

i love you.

2010-03-08T15:15:00.002+08:00

thank you for calling me every night
thank you for texting me everyday
thank you for the wish
thank you for the distant hugs and kisses.
thank you for being there.
thank you for assuring me everything is gna be alright.
thank you cos you made me feel special
each time i'm at my worst.
thank you for telling me that there is nothing wrong with me.
thank you for being here.
thank you for thinking of me while in camp.
thank you for all the messages.
thank you for all the iloveyou.
thank you for all the imissyou.
thank you cos you never fail to make me smile.
thank you cos you're never tired of me.
thank you for trusting me.
thank you for being by my side for more than 5 years now.
thank you for catching me each time i fall.
thank you for wiping off the tears.
thank you for the hugs each time i cry.
thank you for being you.
please don't go~. .
i'll miss you. take care when in tekong.
i'll see you soon.

Bebeh~. i found this in some tumblr. heh

Just pretend you don’t care.
And don’t be surprised when he comes crawling back
saying he made a mistake. And if you want to go, go with him again.
But make him work for you. Don’t be his doormat.
Don’t let him in the first time he rings the bell.
Make him come back every day until you trust him enough.
If he doesn’t come back after a couple of tries, just let him go.
But if he comes back every day, then he’s worth it. Trust me, He’s worth it.

PS: you don't have to tell me anymore.

tall guys are sexaayyy~~

2010-03-07T01:25:00.002+08:00

the only way to see things clearly.
the only way to see that the world is not as bad as you think it is.
the only way to be happy.
the only way to look prettier.
the only way to let others notice you.
is to let go.
let go of all the anger.
let go of all the sadness.
let go of all the memories.
let go of everything that upsets you.
everything is going to be okay.
if not, its not the end.
you know ily.
it saddens me plus made me angry to see u this way la kann.

dear blog,
can you tell him for me?
tell him i miss him much. :(
but tell him i'll be okay.
tell him i know i'll be strong.

wish me all the best ehk.

2010-03-06T16:21:00.005+08:00

i kindda hate my new hair.
i kindda hate my new blue lenses.
so yeaaaa~~. grr.

nak ! hahahahahaa. sweet la boy~. :DD

PS: Johnny Depp ganteng ar~~. *meltssss

it was heartwarming to read your messages.

2010-03-05T15:27:00.003+08:00

sometimes i forget
sometimes i don't think
to show the things i feel and to tell you what i mean
but there is not a day
that ever passes by
that i don't thank god
that i've got you in my life :)
te amor.

even angels learn how to fly

2010-03-04T19:51:00.006+08:00

My mum is very sweeeeeettt :)
yesterday i told her i feel like eating bakso.
and guess what?? she cooked it for me la kan todayyy.
i love you ibu.
saya sayang ibuuuu :))
thank you much !

anyway, a stupid conversation between sissy.

me: are you thinking what im thinking?
sissy : ape?
me: ure not thinking what im thinking?
sissy: whattt?
me: ure supposed to think what im thinking seyyyy
sissy: dhinnnkkk * shakes head

*looks at sissy.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
muka burok seyyy.
hahahahahaha. kononnye nak step
banana in pyjamas ar tu. HAHA.
sissy sissy. never fail to make my nights :)))

i want to gaze at the stars laaaa.
so beautifullllllll. ahhhh~

PS: all you gotta do is try.

hi, saya lapar.

2010-03-03T19:11:00.003+08:00

so many posts in a day can only conclude
that i am super duper boreddddddddddd~. .
i cut my hair yesterday.
i feel so light now.
it feels like my head can terbang.
okay bedek. oh, and i fought with a guy yesterday.
cos he said sth hurting.
not about me. but about someone i love
even if it's about someone i loved,
i dun like hearing bad stuffs about them.
even if it's true.
the only person who could say sth hurting
about them are the ones who know me.
are the ones who are close to me.
if you're a stranger, then stfu.
terima kaseh~. . .
and i dun like guys who put hopes on me
when i clearly say i don't wish to have any dates.
because in the end, you'll blame me for hurting you.
and you can't expect me to care for you
like i'm your gf because i'm not. grrrr~
why cant we just be friends?
FRIENDS. isn't that much beautiful?
friends friends, i love friends. :))))

PS: hi awak, saya rindu. bye ! hmph~

single ladies, listen up. .

2010-03-03T18:53:00.000+08:00

i'm pink-aholic !

2010-03-03T18:30:00.004+08:00

pink ! ahhhhhh~. cantiknyaaaaaaaaaa~ :))
kalau boleh semua nya la nak pink ! heeeee.

anyway anyway anyway,

Forgive me for liking you too much, I’ll forgive you for not liking me enough. Forgive me for the loud racing of my heart, I’ll forgive you for not hearing it. Forgive me for finding you amazing, I’ll forgive you for never noticing. Forgive me for wanting to be with you more than anything, I’ll forgive you for avoiding me. Forgive me for being so pathetic, I’ll forgive you for taking advantage of it. Forgive me for not being able to let go, I’ll forgive you for never holding on.
-redhairband

i know quite a few people who feels like this.
i know how hard it is.
i know how easy you think for me to say move on *insert name here*
i know how you think im strong to face wtv u face.
i know how you wish you could be as strong as me.
but you need to know,
i'm as weak as you.
it's not easy for me to say that.
i know it's easier said than done.
i know you wish he'll realise soon.
but god knows bby. .
god knows i put up a front.
i never question Allah why he put me through this.
because i know there is a lesson for me to learn.
there is a lesson he wants me to learn through
all this encounters. you ask how i'm able to do it.
i answered. i never succeed but i never stop trying.
quitting is out of the question.
i keep trying. till now, i still try.
i don't want people to view me as someone weak.
especially him. you shouldn't let him know you're still here for him la kan.
he'll take advantage of it !
be strong. stop saying you're not !
keep trying. keep standing up each time you fall.
you know ily.

keep forgetting.

2010-03-03T12:36:00.000+08:00

He breaks your heart once, he breaks it twice, he breaks it three times… Yet you go back every time because you know at the end of the day you want him, you know at the end of your life.. you want him…that’s love.
-anonymous

pathetic ehk??
but heck laaaa.